Down the halls...

I am showing my partner around my secondary school.

We had to work out how we would get away with going in.

We walk the halls and there are classes on in each room, restricting us from going in the classrooms. We pass my Music room and I look in, along with others like my English room.

Then we head to another building where I am walking the hallway playing a drum. I start to take my instruments out of the building and place them outside to pack into my car. I had left these instruments behind....

An excerpt from one of my dreams last night.

An illustration of me inviting my inner (and outer) masculine into parts of myself.

I had only ever returned to my school in dreams without him, and often from a regressing perspective. But here I enter as my 'current' self along with my masculine; to show him aspects of myself created during those years and kept hidden in this building of the psyche.

These places within us are often guarded and kept watch on for intruders... to enter is to unravel pains and vulnerabilities locked tightly away for safe keeping. The question asked at the door: Is it safe?

Feeling gratitude that I feel safe enough with myself, my inner masculine and with my partner to expose these places and feel the tender rawness from being seen here.

Though still the rooms have classes on... we can't quite enter fully to explore, there are still limits...

I play the drum down the hallway as an anchor to my self as I am now; to keep from regressing and losing lucidity or witness. A beautiful image of keeping my beat, my center, my clarity, my open heart. I play a meditative rhythm that holds my focus whilst I traverse these halls filled with so much past, weight, energy behind them.

And begin to take with me parts of my creative, expressive self that I left behind.

Parts of me that I let myself forget when I cared more about what others thought of me.

Parts of me that I let fall beneath the surface in the face of grief and pain.

Its time to bring them back with me;

to return to consciousness.

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